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And this is like a rollercoaster, it really is.
So, right after I lose my job, I get a proposition from my old Professor from Vancouver, Canada, who would love to welcome me back to his university to work as a PhD student this time around. He even has two projects to offer to me and I can freely choose which one to take.
I loved working for him, as he has a very nurturing side to him, and always gave me courage.
Now, I only have time to register at this university as a PhD student until the end of this month. If I manage to keep the deadline, I could start as a PhD student in Vancouver in January next year, but...
I don't know what to do. I have been playing with these thoughts for a long time. My time in Vancouver was the best I ever had when I wrote my master thesis there. The best 9 months ever. And ever since I returned to Germany, I was mostly just miserable depressed and had panic attacks, except for the rare moments I could spend with my brother, with my girlfriend, with my extended family. I would leave behind all of my loved ones if I really go. Plus, I would need to find out if I even can go back to Vancouver without negative reprecussions to my pension insurance and such, but I will phone the office on Monday to find that out.
On the other hand, I have friends in Vancouver who would love to welcome me back. I actually know this city very well, and where to find what. In my mind, I still vividly remember how all the streets looked like, how the campus looked like, the hallways, the laboratory.... It would be like "returning home", in a way. And it isn't as scary any more, because I know some people there. My best friend's parents live there and treated me like daughter back then. I wouldn't be as lost as the first time I arrived in that city.
It is weird... almost as if I lost my job just so I could have this chance to go back to what I liked doing and where I really wanted to be. And now I have to decide if to go or not.
What should I do?
And does anyone have any advice on what needs to be done? This goes out to the german people there - if someone goes out to study for 3-4 years abroad as a PhD student, does this time count towards the pension insurance? What else needs to be done before I do? Does anyone know how I can ship my belongings to Canada for relatively cheap?
Of course, this all isn't fleshed out yet, and really depends on if i can keep the registration deadline and if I get the visa, but.. I want to make sure I don't forget anything important beforehand.
So, right after I lose my job, I get a proposition from my old Professor from Vancouver, Canada, who would love to welcome me back to his university to work as a PhD student this time around. He even has two projects to offer to me and I can freely choose which one to take.
I loved working for him, as he has a very nurturing side to him, and always gave me courage.
Now, I only have time to register at this university as a PhD student until the end of this month. If I manage to keep the deadline, I could start as a PhD student in Vancouver in January next year, but...
I don't know what to do. I have been playing with these thoughts for a long time. My time in Vancouver was the best I ever had when I wrote my master thesis there. The best 9 months ever. And ever since I returned to Germany, I was mostly just miserable depressed and had panic attacks, except for the rare moments I could spend with my brother, with my girlfriend, with my extended family. I would leave behind all of my loved ones if I really go. Plus, I would need to find out if I even can go back to Vancouver without negative reprecussions to my pension insurance and such, but I will phone the office on Monday to find that out.
On the other hand, I have friends in Vancouver who would love to welcome me back. I actually know this city very well, and where to find what. In my mind, I still vividly remember how all the streets looked like, how the campus looked like, the hallways, the laboratory.... It would be like "returning home", in a way. And it isn't as scary any more, because I know some people there. My best friend's parents live there and treated me like daughter back then. I wouldn't be as lost as the first time I arrived in that city.
It is weird... almost as if I lost my job just so I could have this chance to go back to what I liked doing and where I really wanted to be. And now I have to decide if to go or not.
What should I do?
And does anyone have any advice on what needs to be done? This goes out to the german people there - if someone goes out to study for 3-4 years abroad as a PhD student, does this time count towards the pension insurance? What else needs to be done before I do? Does anyone know how I can ship my belongings to Canada for relatively cheap?
Of course, this all isn't fleshed out yet, and really depends on if i can keep the registration deadline and if I get the visa, but.. I want to make sure I don't forget anything important beforehand.
To a certain someone
You have written a message to me out of the blue, but didn't even give me the chance to answer - But as a final goodbye to you, I took the time to write out how I really feel about how our friendship ended three years ago. https://deepestuniversallove.tumblr.com/post/677132787538624512/an-sabrinashaylo-artistrylady-fluff
Back, but only sometimes
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And it's all breaking down
Hello everyone,
It has been quite a while since I have written a journal entry; I don't know what is wrong with me, but people in general just make me feel tired and without energy for the past few months, and this also goes for any social media, which is the reason for my long inactivity here on Deviantart. If anything, I am hanging out on tumblr more, where I still continue to post my sketches and ideas.
I don't know how to stop the breakdown of my social contacts. I have had friends, recent and old, all telling me that I take too long to reply and that must mean that I hate them. They tell me that I don't reply for months on end and ask
Sailor Crystal makes her entrance!
Hello everybody!
It has been a while since my last Journal Entry, which I had written quite a long time ago! I am not in my third semester of the first year of my PhD and I am nearing my first committee meeting that is coming up in two weeks, which means that my Proposal needs to be perfect until then... well, just standard grad school stuff, I guess. I am a little bit behind on my stuff, and I hope that my procastrinating tendencies do not take over entirely. I don't know if the cause of my procastrination is depression or what it is.
In any case, since moving to Canada, I feel loads better than a year ago when I was still wondering if I sh
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To me, I see life like a journey. Perhaps I love my Pokemon fandom too much, but moving somewhere else for a brand new opportunity is what I desire as well. The world is a larger place than we could ever imagine. My greatest belief is that you should never regret your decisions. You must make the best choice for yourself, and sometimes we must smile at uncertainty to bring us closer to enlightenment of ourselves.